Perspective

This year I feel like I spent the whole holiday season in the hospital and missed out on a lot. But really, so what? I shouldn't spend any time pouting about missed Christmas traditions and parties because actually I'm not robbed of a single thing with eternal significance. The celebration of baby Jesus is alive and well. I'm breathing. I'm alive. God has a plan for me. I feel so overwhelmed by love I could cry on the spot... The moment I called my family and let them know Tavis needed to take me to the ER for this whole ordeal, my mom didn't even think twice, she was there within minutes to help take care of things for us. I feel so incredibly thankful for my family for taking care of me, Lincoln and Tavis. It's a weird place to feel completely helpless.... but it has really helped me just to rely on God and also recognize how amazing the people around us are. 

While in the hospital my perspective changed. I didn't worry about what I looked like, how much money was in my wallet, or how many people saw me cry. It all has just really put my priorities in line. I cherish my relationships, with Christ and with others. And I have a lot to be thankful for!

---------I'M THANKFUL FOR---------

• Amazing support surrounding me - Although the circumstances suck, this sort of thing is like a bonding experience for me with friends and family. It has created a deep appreciation inside of me!
• Tavis. I do not know where to begin to list the wonderful qualities of this man and if I started talking about him I would never ever stop. I cannot tell you how many people saw how Tavis treated me, and everyone noted "you have a good man." my favorite memory in the hospital is when he got into my itty bitty bed with me and just held me tight while I whaled with tears and he cared about all of my frustrations. No one else understands me and can soothe me like he can. I can't believe I was given such an amazing spouse and partner to do life with! In sickness and in health!
• My body is beginning to heal
• My story is an opportunity to share hope
• My job (thankful for the off season)
• Our studio manager who picked up the slack while I was gone.
• Health insurance. Had this happened in first four years of marriage when I was running around insurance-less I'm not sure what we would have done. 
• Medical students, doctors and nurses in my life that have offered so much "free" and friend advice :) 

---------PRAYER REQUESTS---------

• Strength, continued healing of my pancreatitis, and that my body will be able to accept foods
• Pain will be managed and not have any more out of control flare ups 
• Transitioning,  and patience as I know I'll want to do things at home and help take care of baby but I need to take things slow and let people help me. 

The battle is not over. I'm still dealing with issues but I'm making progress everyday! Thank you for your prayers and help! Many have asked what they can do, Click here to see ways you can help.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!